i will ALWAYS LOVE YOU OAKLEY! (4-5-2011 to 10-7-2011)

 This Friday afternoon was just like any other. Levi was over and Rob and I were sitting outside watching you and Levi. Levi was riding his tractor round-n-round the yard...you would chase him a while, come over and chew on mine or Robs hand a while, lay on the ground and just be you..... Like always i had my camera and was shooting away! Little did i know the horrible horrible thing that would happen a couple hours later.....

Levi went home and all the guys went to out of town to watch a football game..me, well i tanned then decided to run to town to grab something for dinner. I went out to get in the car, you walked me to the car door and stuck your head inside..being the silly dog you are. I started pulling out of the drive and was dragging a couple limbs ....next thing i knew, you went to barking and crying..i had run over you! i swear i dont' remember it! i have beat myself up trying to remember the big bump it had to be, but i can't. if anything, when i got out of the jeep i was thinking i might have hit your foot!!
You ran to me as i got out of the car. You limped over to the yard and i jumped out to check on you. You would sit up some, then the more i cried and loved on you , you laid down. So, i thought if i could get you up to the house, you would perk up...i still had no idea how bad you were hurt! i ran inside and got a towel to lay you on to pull u up to the house, you just layed there and let me. When we got to the house, i ran inside to get you some water..and again it seemed like you were better if i wasn't around crying all over you. You had your front end up, you were kinda breathing heavy, but i still thought you would get up and walk off. So, i ran on to town thinking while i was gone you would try to get up and get going. All i was doing when i was by you was crying, apologizing and hugging you like crazy!  So, as i pulled back into the drive, i saw you were gone...i was so excited! i thought, yep, i was right, i just needed to quit bothering him! Then as i pulled further up into the yard, i saw you...laying there, all twisted wrong, and not moving. My whole world went crazy! You were dead. This is so so wrong!!! you are not suppose to be dead! i ran to you, and just fell on you crying!! i had not only hit you, i had killed you. My Oakley..i am so, so sorry. I loved you like crazy. You were the silliest, easy going, big ole kidd of a  dog!
I don't know what it is, but i have learned my lesson. I am not suppose to have a male Mastiff. Oakleys full brother from another litter, Boss, had an accident and died with me also. We had been playing in the yard on a Sunday afternoon and he ran off the edge of a ditch, fell about 10 feet and broke his back.  These two dogs were amazing. They have the best nature and greatest personality of any dog i have ever known. The Mastiff is a big, ferocious LOOKING dog...but from my experience, they are anything but. i had never even heard Oakley bark at anyone!
I loved  you Oakley. and i am so sad and so sorry for what happened.... i so wish i had of stayed home Friday night and not ever even thought about going to town!!