the PREPARATION...has begun

well, we have scheduled ourselves in a craft show!

Actually i signed us up months ago..but just heard back. so, the next few weeks will be a mad dash to paint and cut as many barrels as we possibly can! it is a lot of work, but hopefully it will pay off. i so hope things turn around and this can become a major part of my income soon!

a bad day at the office, turned into a great night in the studio! oh how i enjoy my artistic side! the desk is not a place for me.....

oCtObEr 8-2012

Today was a winner!

Well, as far as Cross Country Running was concerned. The TBirds had a meet at the Country Club and it was so fun to watch Zac's progression. He placed 4th!! Usually he just kinda finishes..this time he PLACED! And he didnt seem in bad shape when he was done. I am so proud of him. He continues to push himself to succeed...and you just dont get much better than that!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR LEVI (4)AND BRODY(1)..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU TWO!

on Oct 6, 2012 Mollie and Matt did a joint birthday party for the boys. And, i am sure you can tell, they did a PIRATE theme. It turned out to be one of the best parties ever! There was a great turnout, the kids all played so well on the big Pirate Ship daddy and poppa built.

It was so good to watch the smiles, and hear the fellowship goin on.

I LOVE THESE TWO SWEET BOYS.

EVERY DAY

Every day i try to convince myself of something that just isnt true.

Why do i do this?
 for my family. for our security. to not be a quitter. because people depend on me...

Do any of those reasons keep me from hurting? NOPE !
 does it keep me trying to convince myself,, YEP.
I know how i feel will never change.
 i know i need to do something about it.
 i know i am hurting inside.
i know i dont know what to do!!!

I am going to become a very diligent prayer warrior to see what is in store for me. what i can do to make things o.k.  why cant i get past this? why cant i just be????

Depression ... a word i never knew. lately i have become very depressed.
 very trapped.
very uncomfortable.

Lord, please be with me and show me the way.
 Show me what i am to do about this situation.
 I know i am better than who i am today.
 i know there is something big ahead for me.
 i know i am your child.
 i know you will lead me.
i. am. just. ready. to. know. what. that. is!

Thank you Lord for my family. for their love for me and each other. Thank you for the tons of blessing i have in my life. Forgive me for the way i feel. Please comfort me and show me the way for me. show me what i need to do.
I am giving it all to you LORD.
giving it all to YOU

EVERYDAY.

EVERY DAY