Every day i try to convince myself of something that just isnt true.
Why do i do this?
for my family. for our security. to not be a quitter. because people depend on me...
Do any of those reasons keep me from hurting? NOPE !
does it keep me trying to convince myself,, YEP.
I know how i feel will never change.
i know i need to do something about it.
i know i am hurting inside.
i know i dont know what to do!!!
I am going to become a very diligent prayer warrior to see what is in store for me. what i can do to make things o.k. why cant i get past this? why cant i just be????
Depression ... a word i never knew. lately i have become very depressed.
very trapped.
very uncomfortable.
Lord, please be with me and show me the way.
Show me what i am to do about this situation.
I know i am better than who i am today.
i know there is something big ahead for me.
i know i am your child.
i know you will lead me.
i. am. just. ready. to. know. what. that. is!
Thank you Lord for my family. for their love for me and each other. Thank you for the tons of blessing i have in my life. Forgive me for the way i feel. Please comfort me and show me the way for me. show me what i need to do.
I am giving it all to you LORD.
giving it all to YOU
EVERYDAY.
